Sorry I’ve been a bit quiet lately. Right now, I’m just kind of going through some feelings and thoughts that I don’t really know how to express — or if they should be expressed at all, especially in a public forum. Yes, they have to do with Bacon and my relationship with him. No, they’re not happy or good feelings. They’ve recently come up when discussing the future. I’m hoping that they’re just from my previous commitmentphobia and not anything more serious than that.
A part of it is that Bacon’s under a lot of stress at work — although I don’t totally understand why. It doesn’t seem like his workload or hours have increased. It actually seems like both have decreased a bit. But whenever he starts to feel at all stressed out, he gets tired. Like, tired to the point where he doesn’t want to do anything and just wants to sleep for 12+ hours. Tired to the point where his English starts to slip. Tired to the point where he becomes a less-awesome partner for me. All of which makes us bicker more.
Pretty sure it’s just a rough patch and we’ll make it through all right. But in the not-so-distant future, a lot of big questions need to be addressed, the same questions that I think are freaking me out right now. I just hope I’m more prepared to answer them then.
